Life in Limbo

They tell you to go to school and gain an education, they recommend further education so that you can go to university. Then at 18 the options are to get a job in who knows what or go to University. So you spend another three years doing a course purely because you did well at it with no idea what you’re going to do with it.

Fast forward to being 21 graduating with a First. What happens now?

For a long time I’ve thought I would figure out what I want to do with my life in a few years. At 16 I thought I would know after my A-Levels. After my A-Levels I was sure I would know what I wanted to do after University. After three years and a ton of education later do I know what I want to do haven’t got a fucking clue.

Being a 20 something today there is so much pressure; to get the right grades and then to get the right job. I didn’t apply for Graduate roles. One because I didn’t know what I wanted to do and Two because I didn’t want to put the pressure on myself to compete with the snobby people I would imagine going for the same roles as me. I know its bad haha but I just thought if I kept doing me I would figure it out eventually.

After spending my summer abroad and now it’s September. I’ll say it again SEPTEMBER I haven’t got a clue what I want to do. I’m currently applying for jobs in business (I did my degree in this) I know who on earth does that?!

I’m not applying for these jobs because I envision a career in business in a 9-5 office making money no wayyyy! I’m doing it so that I can raise enough money so that I can get out of this town, get out of this country and go see the world. And then when I’m closer to 30 maybe maybe never I’ll have it together. Because right now I most certainly don’t want to sit in an office and live to work then die. If that’s what I did all this Education for then I don’t know why I bothered.

My sister and I are already trying to plan our next trip in November. Admittedly neither of us have jobs, she graduates tomorrow and I graduate next month. But still it’s crazy how all this Education has made me want to run for the hills not actually use the knowledge I gained to get a good job which would be the appropriate use for them.

Anyway this is my post-grad rant after applying to several jobs. I’m waiting for the family members to ask “so what are you going to do now you’ve finished university and travelling?” if anyone has any appropriate responses and by appropriate I mean inappropriate feel free to comment!


 

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It’s Good To Be Reckless Sometimes..

I feel like I plan so much. I like to know where I’m going and at what time. I like to know when things have to be done and how. People sometimes call me the Boff or the SWOT at Uni, because I tend to start my assignments early. Who doesn’t want to do well right? okay that sounded a little nerdish  I also plan ahead because I never want to be one of those deadline day types of people (within reason) so I like to be organised. BUT then there are times that i am completely reckless and live on the wild side…

Reckless – heedless of danger or the consequences of ones actions…

Perhaps its something to do with my zodiac sign? which is cancer. I can plan so much, but sometimes I do things that even I’m like woahhh. This is when I know i’m at my most happiest. Because i’m not planning my diet, or my next workout, or when I have to go to work next or when i should be finishing assignments i just go and do something that actually makes me feel alive!

The other weekend my sister and one of our friends mentioned about going to a festival, the next day we booked it haha. I was at work I just transferred the £200 a now i’m going to a 5 day festival?!
Yesterday I had the most awful day at work. I still exercised, but then ate a takeaway and drank wine? It was a Tuesday night and this morning i had a presentation?

This one is a little less impulsive if you call 3 days less impulsive, but more reckless. So work has been treating me so bad recently that I was actually adding up yesterday if i could afford to quit my job yet or if i would have to wait a little longer until after Uni finished. However, my mum was like “oh just have Thursday off” as the planner and good person I am I haven’t had one day off work in the 6 and 1/2 months that i have been there (not that I’m counting or anything). My response was; “no, i’m not going to have Thursday off because I think i’m going to bunk Saturday” haha.

These little decisions or plans are the things that make me feel the most alive and happy, because they are moments right now. Although its good to plan ahead! I have so many exciting things happenings this summer it’s also important not to wish life away, by doing the little impulsive things that get us through the day a little easier…

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I don’t have a reason for this picture I just liked the quote as usual it was saved in my phone…