So I was sitting with my sister and she said I feel like you just need to admit you hate it. There’s nothing to be ashamed of. I tried to justify it, I tried to convince her (and myself) that noooo it’s not so bad. But the truth I hate it. 9-5 is not for me. I would rather be dead that do this for the next 30 years. I read this post the other day; to the girl who lost her ambition to travel. People asked what you wanted to do in 5 years time she stated she wanted to be in this country or that country. They replied no as a job?
I’ve never related to anything so much haha. I go to work I come home I get drunk on the weekends and then repeat the same action as I have for the last 8 weeks. And I know my whole life isn’t revolved around a job, but when you work 9-5 5 days a week. Let’s get real here it kind of is!
My sister has finally figured out what she wants to do. Me on the other hand I still want to see the world and then figure it out. I’m 21 not 50. I think I definitely have post-graduate blues. Don’t get me wrong I hated university, but when people asked you what you wanted to do it was okay not to know because when your a student your still a child. Now that I have a full time job, with a degree that answer doesn’t quite have the same ring to it.
Anyway here’s to figuring out my next step in traveling whilst trying not to quit my job every single day!
So 9-5 I’ve been at it a good 5 weeks in that time I’ve graduated. Woo! But I’ve discovered some things;
1. I do not want to work 9-5 for the rest of my life. One morning I googled Dolly Parsons 9-5 song in the madness and have never realised the lyrics are so true…
“Barely gettin’ by, it’s all takin’ and no givin” – you can tell that to my bank account
“They let you dream just to watch ’em shatter. You’re just a step on the boss-man’s ladder” – basically you are pretty much a nobody
Okay I’ll stop with the lyrics now but it’s so true.
2. I thought my plans of travelling would change turns out it’s gave me more of a desire to do it
I’m 21 not old! If this is what I’ve signed up for, for the rest of my life it’s a no from me! I even said to my mum if I’m still here in two years literally write my letter of resignation.
So they were just some of the things I learnt in this 9-5 life. I recently also reunited with an old friend. She had messaged me when the earthquake hit in kos and although I said I’d message her when I’m back by the time I had finally got my life together it was October.
I thought take the risk she can only ignore me or just say no? So I did it. I don’t know why I was ever so afraid most of the time people are in the exact same position as you. We just never realise it. It turned out we had such an amazing night we agreed to keep in contact more regularly and to this day we still have. Our friendship is 7 years old but we haven’t seen each other in 2 and half years in between the chatting and of course the drinking it was amazing how much we had shared in common including tough times.
I would recommend everyone who thinks about a friend or someone they haven’t spoken to in a while just message them! A lot of the time they are probably building up the courage to message you!
Anyway as I’ve turned into an old lady who literally parties at the weekend and goes to bed early in the week I will say goodnight!
Since coming back from travelling I’ve had to get my diet back on track which is slightly depressing… I guess holidays can’t last forever. So I’ve come up with a plan so that I’m not stuck in this town forever. However, some things will never change like exercising and trying to lose weight, but with all the drinking and partying this summer I just didn’t have much time for that you know haha!
In Italy traditional pizza and pasta don’t actually use meat aside from ham in their dishes. So for the whole week we were all like where is the damn chicken. Okay we did eat McDonald’s once and caved haha. But it got me thinking about meat yes it contains protein, but so do many other products. My mum who is another diet advocate (unfortunately we all are in this house) has started meat free days. Where two days a week she doesn’t eat meat.
I’m someone that likes to google the benefits before I get involved in something. Typical haha. But I was actually quite surprised…
1. Reducing the risk of heart attacks and strokes
2. Help to prevent cancer
3. Helps with weight loss in general
It can also reduce the impact of climate change.
So I’m not saying I’ll be a full-blown veggie, but today I decided to include meat free Monday’s into my diet which is the new craze and tbh it’s not actually that bad!
I also went for my first run in a long time on Saturday. It reminded me why I liked it so much. I also tried hummus at the weekend – yeah that shits still gross not a fan. And I have also given up alcohol for a while – this summer got to out of control haha.
To finish off my summer I spent a week in Italy. Eating as much spaghetti and pizza as I can handle!
We started off in Rome visiting some amazing sights including St Peters Square, the Colosseum and for any Lizzie McGuire movie fans I also made a wish in the beautiful Trevi fountain.
We also went on a bar crawl around Rome with so many nationalities. To say that was a crazy night would be an understatement.
After 4 days we took the train to Naples…
Well let’s just say Naples isn’t quite like Rome. We were staying in the unsafe area and for what it’s worth I wouldn’t recommend being outside at night. Still to get over our initial shock we made plans…
The next day we took the ferry to Capri. Okay if I was rich Capri would be my holiday destination for a lifetime it was so beautiful and the water was so clear. We actually had an amazing day sitting on the beach with all the locals.
On our final full day we took the train which we stood on for an hour with no air-con (tragic) to Pompeii. As one of the worlds heritage sites it was amazing and so sad to imagine a city wiped out after being buried under a mountain of volcano ash from the eruption of Mount Vesuvius. We actually saw a preserved child, dog and adult which is just so sad and one of the most memorable parts of my trip to Naples.
Also fun fact Bastilles song Pompeii actually was about Pompeii I googled it just to double check then we listened to it. Such a throwback tune!
My trip to Italy was incredible despite some bits being a bit hazy from all the wine we drunk. Once again I met some amazing people and visited an amazing country. My drive to keep travelling has only been fueled even more….
Urgh social media I love to hate it. I’m the type of person who loves to go abroad because half the time I can’t be on my phone usually because there is no wifi. However, when I come home I’m still always glued to my phone. It’s like how can I be both people?
Social media also drives me mad because you can basically follow what everyone’s doing. People you like, people you don’t like as much and just everyone in general.
Then there’s ‘liking’ people’s post and reading into what it means. It’s so damn calculated. When someone who I dunno maybe you like or unsure about (clearly undecided), likes your post I read into it so damn much. I’m like why did they like a post from 3 days ago. It obviously means they looked at your profile?
Okay I’ll stop venting. Thank god I’m getting on a plane tomorrow haha. However, just seen another earthquake has hit near Naples in Italy. Guess whose going to be their on Sunday…
I read this quote the other day;
“I am here to live out loud” – Emilia Zolita
I feel like I need to take this advice and stop questioning everything online and just live. If people want to do weird and calculated things it’s on them. I’m just going to keep doing me. On that note I need to go pack for Italy….
I always hate the feeling of being trapped it’s like being stuck somewhere you don’t belong. Home was always the saviour whenever I hated uni I knew I could always come home. Whenever I went to my dad’s house on the weekend and hated sitting their knowing I was always a second class citizen I knew I only had to wait till 4pm Sunday evening to come home. However, what happens when you’re finally content with life and home isn’t where you want to be…
This summer I’ve seen so much and although I’ve had a desire to travel I’ve always been hesitant because of uni experiences and life in general I never thought I could do it.
But now things are different…
I hate being stuck at home I’m counting down the days till I’m in Italy. I’ve come up with a plan so that I can travel and see more of the world after I’ve come back from Italy. Things take time, but for once I’ve got a plan. And although it pains me to say it although I do love home. Me, my sister and my mum are literally the three musketeers we are so close and I’m so grateful for that. This in no way is meant to sound ungrateful, but I finally understand the meaning of flying the nest.
I’m ready to move on. Ready to see the world. I’ve never had such a burning desire to get out of this town where everything’s been the same for a very long time. Most people here seem to be stuck with no desire to move on.
Today I watched ‘Everything Everything’ it’s a good film I would deffo recommend. It’s basically about this girl who is trapped in her house due to having a severe illness. I won’t ruin the ending, but let’s just say being stuck in her house is kind of how I feel right now.
When I was sitting on the beach in Greece or travelling on a boat I never felt so free. Now that this is my reality being stuck at home part of me feels like I’m waiting for the next adventure when surely life should just be one big adventure?
After I went to Mexico. I then took a trip to Suffolk and went to latitude festival where I jumped on my best friends shoulders and sung my heart out to Mumford and Sons – I will wait whilst rather intoxicated.
From there I went to Kos in Greece. Our first night things went bump and we experienced their first earthquake in many years. Although it was my first night we also experienced aftershocks the second night which I was wide awake for. Fortunately we were in the south Kos town experienced the majority of the disaster and I just feel so sorry for all the injured and the victims. Greece is so beautiful and for a town to be destroyed by a natural disaster is so tragic.
Anyway so after surviving the earthquake we experienced Kos clubs which were not like British clubs although they had the British music people were allowed to smoke so I ended up smelling like an ashtray some nights when we ventured to Downtown which is an underground club in Kardamena.
We also went on a boat trip to paradise beach also known as bubble beach due to the volcano nearby some parts of the beach experience air bubbles. Fortunately I had my camera this whole summer so I captured some footage of the bubbles!
I never thought I could fall in love with a place so badly, but after 3 weeks which resulted in us using our bank cards in foreign ATM’s to withdraw more money. It’s safe to say I never wanted to leave despite having the worlds worst hangover on the final day and I mean horrific!
I would go back in a heartbeat I actually looked at flights, but they were all fully booked. Myself and my sister had two mottos in Kos;
The first one – What happens in Kos stays in Kos
The second one – Here for a good time not a long time
So now after following several people on Instagram from our holiday and questioning whether we will ever keep in touch. I am now waiting for our next adventure to Italy in 10 days where we will be travelling to Rome and Naples.
What I’ve learned most from this summer is I never want to live in my hometown forever this world is to beautiful to be stuck in one place.