The Club Isn’t The Best Place To Find A Lover

So I went back to my old university this weekend with my sister and our best friend. My sister was like you’ve got to kiss someone this weekend. I said “no im meant to have matured since university! This will not be happening”.

We had a conversation the other day about the dreaded Tinder and she asked me do you want to meet someone? And I thought about it…

Yeah I do want to meet someone but I still have hope that you can meet someone the convential way by actually communicating in person rather than through a swipe right. I also said I want someone to like me for me with all my faults and all.

I would like to point out no I did not kiss anyone. See I told you I’ve matured… anyway. We were on the drive home and I was like yeah I do need to put myself out there more. And my sister said yeah but the club isn’t the best place to find a lover. GOOD OLD ED!


So how do you meet someone? 

Work – that would be messy considering I’m literally on day one of a new job haha can you imagine.

In the street – that would be weird I would probably run a mile literally

So where… between work and life how do you meet someone? Until then I guess I’ll party and get drunk in clubs because hey you’re only 21 once right?


I was going to post a very funny drunk photo, but you know a picture of the beach is nicer! 

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Giving Ourselves More Credit

So I went for 4 job interviews this week. 4. Yes 4. I went for one and thought yeah it’s alright. The next day I found out I have another one. LOVED IT. Then went for a second interview at both of them. Today in my sisters and my mums group chat and I quote I said: “I will cry if I don’t get this job”. LITERALLY.

I think we all have that outlook sometimes that things won’t go our way. Things won’t go as planned. I know I’m one to always think the worse. I also thought if I think badly about the job maybe good will come. I know my psychology is messed uppppp.

So I got the call from the agency saying they are going to call the company. It was 4:50pm I thought if I stare at this phone any more I’m going to go mad. Then my sister say I’ve got a call. I answer it. I got the damn job!

It got me thinking we always think the worse, but still hope for the best. I literally always do. For once the outcome was in my favour and I’m literally on cloud 9. Yes at the age of 21 I jumped up and down for joy. Then opened the bottle of prosecco and am now sitting here drinking alone (Because who doesn’t like a Bridget Jones interpretation). No one else wanted to drink on a Thursday night can’t think why?!!

Anyway it just got me thinking we think the worse and give ourselves less credit than we deserve! On that note I need to go pack to spend my last weekend pretending I’m a Uni student before acting like a serious adult starting my job on Monday.

Have a good weekend! xx

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Woo finally a picture of me mid-cocktail drinking last weekend in London! I’m sure this weekend will be similar!

Start Living In The Present

I always feel like I’m waiting. I waited for uni to end, I waited to go traveling, I’m waiting for the weekend. It’s true people say we spend our whole life waiting. Life is happening whilst we make plans. I need to stop living for the weekend and live for right now. So I did some researching on ways to live in the now here is my list;

-Forgive past hurts

“It is one of the greatest gifts you can give yourself, to forgive. Forgive everybody” –Maya Angelou

This weekend I’m going back to my old uni where for my final year their I was depressed and unhappy. I’m likely to bump into a few people that did me wrong. I’m the type of person that wouldn’t confront anyone I just wouldn’t say anything at all. I feel like I’m just gonna take the approach of “hi how are you?” And just let it go. I don’t need my night ruined and they’re never gonna accept they did anything wrong so why put myself through the misery?

-Love your job

It’s just a job. Grass grows, birds fly, waves pound the sand. I best people up” – Muhammad Ali (okay the end of the that quote made me laugh) 

So tomorrow I’m going for my second job interview of the week and it’s only Tuesday say what?! The first interview I didn’t have much hope for but, I actually really liked the atmosphere and felt so much better about the interview after. So when it comes to making a choice what if I don’t like the one that chooses me? What if I get offered both, knowing one is more money which do I pick? CHOICES!

-Dream about the future, but work hard today

“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams”Eleanor Roosevelt 

It’s good to have plans for the future. That’s how I know I won’t get stuck in a job I hate forever. However, it doesn’t mean today can be any less important than the plans I’ve made for the future.

-Stop worrying

“If you treat every situation as a life and death matter, you’ll die a lot of times.”
– Dean Smith

I worry so much. I worry I’ll never be good enough, I’ll never be fully happy, I worry about the interview tomorrow, I worry I won’t find a job, I worry about organising my plans for the weekend for me and my friends, I worry about things that don’t need to be worried about but I worry.
This will be forever my biggest failing and the thing that will forever hold me back. I know it aswell I’ve just never been able to change it!

So here’s the things I plan to do to live in the now. Any other ways to stop wishing for the weekend and living in the now feel free to comment! 


 

Surviving Earthquakes and Holiday Blues

So I’ve had a crazy summer so far…

After I went to Mexico. I then took a trip to Suffolk and went to latitude festival where I jumped on my best friends shoulders and sung my heart out to Mumford and Sons – I will wait whilst rather intoxicated. 

From there I went to Kos in Greece. Our first night things went bump and we experienced their first earthquake in many years. Although it was my first night we also experienced aftershocks the second night which I was wide awake for. Fortunately we were in the south Kos town experienced the majority of the disaster and I just feel so sorry for all the injured and the victims. Greece is so beautiful and for a town to be destroyed by a natural disaster is so tragic.

Anyway so after surviving the earthquake we experienced Kos clubs which were not like British clubs although they had the British music people were allowed to smoke so I ended up smelling like an ashtray some nights when we ventured to Downtown which is an underground club in Kardamena. 

We also went on a boat trip to paradise beach also known as bubble beach due to the volcano nearby some parts of the beach experience air bubbles. Fortunately I had my camera this whole summer so I captured some footage of the bubbles!

I never thought I could fall in love with a place so badly, but after 3 weeks which resulted in us using our bank cards in foreign ATM’s to withdraw more money. It’s safe to say I never wanted to leave despite having the worlds worst hangover on the final day and I mean horrific!


I would go back in a heartbeat I actually looked at flights, but they were all fully booked. Myself and my sister had two mottos in Kos;

The first one – What happens in Kos stays in Kos

The second one – Here for a good time not a long time

So now after following several people on Instagram from our holiday and questioning whether we will ever keep in touch. I am now waiting for our next adventure to Italy in 10 days where we will be travelling to Rome and Naples.

What I’ve learned most from this summer is I never want to live in my hometown forever this world is to beautiful to be stuck in one place.

Getting Away

So for the last two weeks I have been in Mexico. There is nothing I love more than leaving my normal life behind and hopping on a plane. Although it did take 11 hours!

Switching off from the world being in a completely different time zone and meeting new people was absolutely incredible. Part of me wishes I never had to come back. Although I do have exciting things ahead so the feeling of sadness quickly evaporated.

Getting away from the world doesn’t have to just be going to a different country. There are so many other ways to getaway when things seem to be too much this includes;

-Turning off my phone! Social Media is one of the easiest ways to switch off from the world

– Visiting a new town or city. I recently went to Scotland although it is an hours plane journey it’s somewhere I had never been before

– Taking a walk also always gives me the thinking time I need.

From now on I’m definitely going to make sure I take time to getaway. For now I am onto the next adventure of sleeping in a tent at a festival for 4 nights wish me luck!

Still dreaming of Mexico’s sunset…

It’s Good To Be Reckless Sometimes..

I feel like I plan so much. I like to know where I’m going and at what time. I like to know when things have to be done and how. People sometimes call me the Boff or the SWOT at Uni, because I tend to start my assignments early. Who doesn’t want to do well right? okay that sounded a little nerdish  I also plan ahead because I never want to be one of those deadline day types of people (within reason) so I like to be organised. BUT then there are times that i am completely reckless and live on the wild side…

Reckless – heedless of danger or the consequences of ones actions…

Perhaps its something to do with my zodiac sign? which is cancer. I can plan so much, but sometimes I do things that even I’m like woahhh. This is when I know i’m at my most happiest. Because i’m not planning my diet, or my next workout, or when I have to go to work next or when i should be finishing assignments i just go and do something that actually makes me feel alive!

The other weekend my sister and one of our friends mentioned about going to a festival, the next day we booked it haha. I was at work I just transferred the £200 a now i’m going to a 5 day festival?!
Yesterday I had the most awful day at work. I still exercised, but then ate a takeaway and drank wine? It was a Tuesday night and this morning i had a presentation?

This one is a little less impulsive if you call 3 days less impulsive, but more reckless. So work has been treating me so bad recently that I was actually adding up yesterday if i could afford to quit my job yet or if i would have to wait a little longer until after Uni finished. However, my mum was like “oh just have Thursday off” as the planner and good person I am I haven’t had one day off work in the 6 and 1/2 months that i have been there (not that I’m counting or anything). My response was; “no, i’m not going to have Thursday off because I think i’m going to bunk Saturday” haha.

These little decisions or plans are the things that make me feel the most alive and happy, because they are moments right now. Although its good to plan ahead! I have so many exciting things happenings this summer it’s also important not to wish life away, by doing the little impulsive things that get us through the day a little easier…

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I don’t have a reason for this picture I just liked the quote as usual it was saved in my phone…

 

 

 

 

The Scale Of Life

We are constantly putting ourselves and others on a pedestal. We scale ourselves against each other in order to see who performs better whether this be in life, in competition or in the way we look. I am no stranger to this scale. In order to lose weight and get fit I put myself on a scale everyday through weighting myself, through counting the calories I eat, through looking at fitness pictures and being envious of people’s bodies.

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My breakfast being no exception to counting calories!

However, some would argue this is the society we live in today. Although I would like to think I don’t judge others I am no stranger to comparing myself. I have recently learnt that not everything can be measured! I took photos at the start of this year to compare my weight loss and recently took them again. I had lost weight significantly which the scale didn’t actually reflect. Don’t get me wrong the scale going down is a very satisfying feeling for myself, but I know now I’m more than just a scale.IMG_2454

I read this quote the other day about the cost of ambition. It couldn’t be truer, but how do we measure ambitions success? Usually by a number on a scale from where we are to where we want to be. Personally I think we should measure it by our performance on our way to success, because determination to get to the place we want to be is more satisfying on reflection than the number we get as a result.

Although hitting the 1 stone number this week was a very happy feeling, even my Fitbit informed me I had lost 6kg so maybe happiness can be measured in numbers sometimes…