Running Away From An Ex Literally 

So me and my sister decided we had such a productive morning. That means waking up early and leaving the house before 10am  shock. Unemployed Graduate life is tough you know? So after running a few errands including signing up to the job agency depressing and going shopping we thought we should go for a run.

So usually we go for an early run. However, this time we went at half 11. We start our run and as we move further forward my sister goes “Shit is that Kevin“* (okay name changed). Kevin is her dickhead ex boyfriend who unfortunately after 4 and a half years of dating and nearly a year of being her ex lives opposite us. And when I say opposite I mean 20 steps from our front door to his (not that I’ve counted). How unfortunate right?!

So back to our run she says it’s him. And I’m like f*#k! We are getting closer and closer there is no way either of us can turn around. So we run past him. My sister then hit’s the indenial stage of ‘it wasn’t him’. 

However, at this point our gentle run has turned into a Usain Bolt marathon sprint. In my head I’m like why are we running so fast we’ve already past him whilst trying to tell my sister it was definitely him. I also in this time have had to keep looking round to see if he’s crossed the road to where we live whilst having heart failure on this run. 


It all sounds dramatic because in the year that they have split up she has never walked past him despite living opposite us. Not once. Yes I’ve seen him and she’s had near misses, but she has never walked side by side. She’s convinced god doesn’t want her to see him. So anyway I was like “why does it matter what would you have done?” – still running Usain Bolt fast. She said “I dunno called him a dickhead”. I then tried to convince her “look you’re fine you we’re running who cares what he thinks he’s an idiot in a SnapBack and still a loser”. Okay we won’t be bitchy about his new girlfriend he got 3 weeks after they split up but yeah (leaves it at that). 

So moral of the story running away from an ex increased the speed of our run and we had our best average all because we almost might still not 100% sure may have seen my sisters ex. We’re still laughing about it now. Well I am… 

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After The Binge

Although this doesn’t happen very often anymore as it’s so hard to get back on it after. I very really never have a binge weekend. But yes it does happen… 

When I say a binge weekend I don’t mean a glass of wine or a piece of chocolate I mean 3 days non-stop drinking alcohol, eating everything in sight and not exercising. I even went one step further and had the dreaded McDonalds which I probably haven’t had in like over 4 months and then Monday hits you.

Today I got up went on the scales which is probably the worst things to do and jumped back off before my final number hit because I knew it was high. I then exercised with bruised knees and painful swollen feet. No it was not fun, no I probably didn’t give it my best but I did it.

I did a HIIT session and am now laying on my bed. 

I know why I don’t do it as often, because one as you may have seen from my post yesterday; https://courageouslyjustliving.wordpress.com/2017/05/14/making-the-same-mistakes/ it’s not always fun. And two because it undone all the effort and hard work I had put in the week before. It also makes it so much harder to not eat carbs and resist eating everything in sight because your body gets used to a certain levels of food. It also makes my skin very bad! Next weekend Im going to Scotland knowing I will be drinking but ensuring it won’t be a ‘binge’ weekend because I’m only human right? 

So I came up with a list of reasons why binge weekends whether it be chocolate or alcohol or in my case both are not necessarily worth it;

1. It makes healthy eating so much harder when Monday comes around

2. It makes your skin terrible and in my case UDI’s (Unidentified Drunkard Injuries)

3. One night might be fun but a whole weekend can actually turn out to be a disaster

4. Wasting so much money 

5. Looking at the scale on Monday with no hope what so ever

6. Drinking and fuelling your body on alcohol is actually really bad and can leave you dehydrated for days 

7. Not everything has to revolve around food or drink socialising shouldn’t be an excuse

8. Losing weight won’t come any easier 

9. The pain in your feet isn’t enjoyable from wearing those heels and attempting to dance like Shakira

10. Most of the time you regret it anyway 

So I need to make a mental log of these feelings, my mum used to say if you could put the feeling of a hangover in a bottle to remember we wouldn’t bother drinking at all. So here I am back to healthy eating early Monday morning attempting to seize the day…

Those Monday Regrets…

It’s okay to have those ‘bad’ days. This weekend I didn’t have work, therefore I ate the entire fridge haha (joking…kinda). I didn’t exercise, I didn’t do any Uni work I spent Saturday and Sunday with family and friends. Drunk alcohol for three days straight and ate the same amount of chocolate as the weight of a small child.

I realised though, it’s okay. People say balance is a good thing. For me I was always adverse to balance due to the fact I’m either all in or all out. There is no in between for me.

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As a result today I have woke up hungry (still didn’t eat) went to Uni, now at lunch I ate a small cheese and some cashew nuts. I get that people say oh you should eat normally even after you have had a binge. My mental attitude is not a supporter of this knowing full well I deserve not to eat. Almost 4 months into this diet ‘lifestyle’ I know I ate the food I’m now living with the consequences. The ironic thing is that last week I ate even less than that before I exercised and then ate normally and was fine. Due to my body consuming so much food at the weekend I’ve now had the opposite effect.

Was it worth it? Hell yeah Well some would argue no, today I argue no. Tomorrow when I’m back to more suitable eating I’ll probably say yes. I would never think my body could get use to so much good nutrition that having two days bad would actually leave me so bloated and heavily impacted by these changes.

In hindsight I should have ate a lot less, but isn’t that why hindsight’s a beautiful thing? Anyway tomorrow is a new day, today I am back to exercising and dieting and slowly starving and healthy living.

Hope everyone has a good Monday! One positive is I am 27 days into lent and still haven’t drunk any fizzy drinks, question though is drinking wine just as bad at this point haha…

Being Both Is Okay.

Weight loss. It’s one of those things that plays on every one’s mind. We all want to be a little more of this and little less of that. We make the New Year’s resolutions, we promise ourselves we will start Monday. Yet every time we do we give up only to start again a month later. Anyone else remember this vicious cycle? 

I have been in that cycle from the start of my teenage years to last year. Don’t get me wrong I had lost weight, but most of the time I gave up. In September I began a new Uni, new job and was happy living back at home. These all contributed to me wanting to lose the stone I had gained in my second year of Uni (and more). However, I did have those plummets still until January. When I promised myself enough is enough! Yes I love to drink (who doesn’t) and yes I love to eat (I only have to say chocolate and gain a stone). However, I realised if I really wanted to lose the weight I couldn’t just keep doing these on again off again crash diets that I was doing. I had to have a plan and stick to it…

Now on month 3 I have lost 11 pounds I took dreaded pictures (I won’t share), but I recently thought let’s compare and see if there is any change. The scales haven’t gone down as quick as I hoped, but my body shape has changed. I have recently changed diets I was originally doing the 5:2 diet where I eat 500 calories for two days and the rest I ate 800. However, as someone who struggles not eating (who doesn’t) my body can’t always handle the lack of food. I have now decided to start the Joe Wicks shape plan where I eat 2 meals with no carbs and one meal with carbs only if I exercise that day. Last week I did 6 exercises and attended work and Uni haha.  

Today.  I didn’t eat breakfast which was bad of me… but for lunch I had cheese, chopped carrots, tomato, cucumber and pepper. I also had some fruit and some cashew nuts. Later on I’m going to a pump class it’s a weight class for 45 minutes, but then I will be eating a low Cal spaghetti Carbonara.

Don’t get me wrong unless you’re a full on lover of healthy eating and exercise. It’s not fun, but I know I’m never going to lose weight if I don’t make changes and sometimes we do have to make sacrifices. I know I can eat a bad meal or eat chocolate, but I also know by sacrificing something the scales are going down and my body changing for the better is my reward. Being both a lover of food and someone who wants to lose weight is fine, its just about finding the balance in the right direction. Anyone else agree or have any weight loss story’s I am a bit obsessed with them I’m not going to lie haha!  xoxo

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The Real Monday Motivation

Today I made the usual Monday commitment to eat healthy. As usual i had consumed well too much food and alcohol over the weekend and after had got on the scales only to say fuck this to quickly get back off.

After feeling under the weather I decided to go down the healthy tea route this morning, I recommend Twinings defence immune boosts it contains; ginger, vitamins and lots of earthly roots (I read it off the box) but as a promoter of green tea I thought I would give it a go. It actually did make me feel better probably psychological haha but I like the idea of my body having a bit of purifying after all the crap I’ve been consuming.

So after uni I was planning on going to Legs, Bum and Tums tonight. However at 4 my sister decided to bail what a dragggg! After eating healthy all day I thought let’s just workout from home I’ve got the weights and the time let’s just do this. Sometimes we can be our own motivation.

So I planned out my workout incorporating stuff from the gym class and from doing HIIT (high intensity interval training) in the past. I promised myself I would do it for half hour gym classes run for 45 minutes so I figured why the hell not!


Here was my plan to show I didn’t lie haha. Afterwards and even during I felt so much better all day I’ve been researching recipes and coming up with new ideas. Today I didn’t need anyone’s motivation but my own. So now sitting here this evening after consuming less than 800 calories all day I am ready for tomorrow’s workout and motivated enough to truly lose some weight before Christmas!

I hope everyone’s else’s Monday was just as motivational!