Life in Limbo

They tell you to go to school and gain an education, they recommend further education so that you can go to university. Then at 18 the options are to get a job in who knows what or go to University. So you spend another three years doing a course purely because you did well at it with no idea what you’re going to do with it.

Fast forward to being 21 graduating with a First. What happens now?

For a long time I’ve thought I would figure out what I want to do with my life in a few years. At 16 I thought I would know after my A-Levels. After my A-Levels I was sure I would know what I wanted to do after University. After three years and a ton of education later do I know what I want to do haven’t got a fucking clue.

Being a 20 something today there is so much pressure; to get the right grades and then to get the right job. I didn’t apply for Graduate roles. One because I didn’t know what I wanted to do and Two because I didn’t want to put the pressure on myself to compete with the snobby people I would imagine going for the same roles as me. I know its bad haha but I just thought if I kept doing me I would figure it out eventually.

After spending my summer abroad and now it’s September. I’ll say it again SEPTEMBER I haven’t got a clue what I want to do. I’m currently applying for jobs in business (I did my degree in this) I know who on earth does that?!

I’m not applying for these jobs because I envision a career in business in a 9-5 office making money no wayyyy! I’m doing it so that I can raise enough money so that I can get out of this town, get out of this country and go see the world. And then when I’m closer to 30 maybe maybe never I’ll have it together. Because right now I most certainly don’t want to sit in an office and live to work then die. If that’s what I did all this Education for then I don’t know why I bothered.

My sister and I are already trying to plan our next trip in November. Admittedly neither of us have jobs, she graduates tomorrow and I graduate next month. But still it’s crazy how all this Education has made me want to run for the hills not actually use the knowledge I gained to get a good job which would be the appropriate use for them.

Anyway this is my post-grad rant after applying to several jobs. I’m waiting for the family members to ask “so what are you going to do now you’ve finished university and travelling?” if anyone has any appropriate responses and by appropriate I mean inappropriate feel free to comment!



Meat Free Monday

Since coming back from travelling I’ve had to get my diet back on track which is slightly depressing… I guess holidays can’t last forever. So I’ve come up with a plan so that I’m not stuck in this town forever. However, some things will never change like exercising and trying to lose weight, but with all the drinking and partying this summer I just didn’t have much time for that you know haha!

In Italy traditional pizza and pasta don’t actually use meat aside from ham in their dishes. So for the whole week we were all like where is the damn chicken. Okay we did eat McDonald’s once and caved haha. But it got me thinking about meat yes it contains protein, but so do many other products. My mum who is another diet advocate (unfortunately we all are in this house) has started meat free days. Where two days a week she doesn’t eat meat.

I’m someone that likes to google the benefits before I get involved in something. Typical haha. But I was actually quite surprised…

1. Reducing the risk of heart attacks and strokes

2. Help to prevent cancer

3. Helps with weight loss in general

It can also reduce the impact of climate change.

So I’m not saying I’ll be a full-blown veggie, but today I decided to include meat free Monday’s into my diet which is the new craze and tbh it’s not actually that bad!

I also went for my first run in a long time on Saturday. It reminded me why I liked it so much. I also tried hummus at the weekend – yeah that shits still gross not a fan. And I have also given up alcohol for a while – this summer got to out of control haha.

Anyway till next time!

Roaming Around Italia!

To finish off my summer I spent a week in Italy. Eating as much spaghetti and pizza as I can handle!

We started off in Rome visiting some amazing sights including St Peters Square, the Colosseum and for any Lizzie McGuire movie fans I also made a wish in the beautiful Trevi fountain.

An estimated 3,000 euros is thrown into the fountain everyday!
We also went on a bar crawl around Rome with so many nationalities. To say that was a crazy night would be an understatement.

After 4 days we took the train to Naples…
Well let’s just say Naples isn’t quite like Rome. We were staying in the unsafe area and for what it’s worth I wouldn’t recommend being outside at night. Still to get over our initial shock we made plans…

The next day we took the ferry to Capri. Okay if I was rich Capri would be my holiday destination for a lifetime it was so beautiful and the water was so clear. We actually had an amazing day sitting on the beach with all the locals.

I wish I lived here!
On our final full day we took the train which we stood on for an hour with no air-con (tragic) to Pompeii. As one of the worlds heritage sites it was amazing and so sad to imagine a city wiped out after being buried under a mountain of volcano ash from the eruption of Mount Vesuvius. We actually saw a preserved child, dog and adult which is just so sad and one of the most memorable parts of my trip to Naples.

Also fun fact Bastilles song Pompeii actually was about Pompeii I googled it just to double check then we listened to it. Such a throwback tune! 

Pompeii Ruins!

My trip to Italy was incredible despite some bits being a bit hazy from all the wine we drunk. Once again I met some amazing people and visited an amazing country. My drive to keep travelling has only been fueled even more….

The Power Of Social Media

Urgh social media I love to hate it. I’m the type of person who loves to go abroad because half the time I can’t be on my phone usually because there is no wifi. However, when I come home I’m still always glued to my phone. It’s like how can I be both people? 

Social media also drives me mad because you can basically follow what everyone’s doing. People you like, people you don’t like as much and just everyone in general. 

Then there’s ‘liking’ people’s post and reading into what it means. It’s so damn calculated. When someone who I dunno maybe you like or unsure about (clearly undecided), likes your post I read into it so damn much. I’m like why did they like a post from 3 days ago. It obviously means they looked at your profile? 

Okay I’ll stop venting. Thank god I’m getting on a plane tomorrow haha. However, just seen another earthquake has hit near Naples in Italy. Guess whose going to be their on Sunday… 

I read this quote the other day;

“I am here to live out loud” – Emilia Zolita

I feel like I need to take this advice and stop questioning everything online and just live. If people want to do weird and calculated things it’s on them. I’m just going to keep doing me. On that note I need to go pack for Italy….

When It’s Time To Fly The Nest 

I always hate the feeling of being trapped it’s like being stuck somewhere you don’t belong. Home was always the saviour whenever I hated uni I knew I could always come home. Whenever I went to my dad’s house on the weekend and hated sitting their knowing I was always a second class citizen I knew I only had to wait till 4pm Sunday evening to come home. However, what happens when you’re finally content with life and home isn’t where you want to be…

This summer I’ve seen so much and although I’ve had a desire to travel I’ve always been hesitant because of uni experiences and life in general I never thought I could do it. 

But now things are different…
I hate being stuck at home I’m counting down the days till I’m in Italy. I’ve come up with a plan so that I can travel and see more of the world after I’ve come back from Italy. Things take time, but for once I’ve got a plan. And although it pains me to say it although I do love home. Me, my sister and my mum are literally the three musketeers we are so close and I’m so grateful for that. This in no way is meant to sound ungrateful, but I finally understand the meaning of flying the nest.

I’m ready to move on. Ready to see the world. I’ve never had such a burning desire to get out of this town where everything’s been the same for a very long time. Most people here seem to be stuck with no desire to move on. 

Today I watched ‘Everything Everything’ it’s a good film I would deffo recommend. It’s basically about this girl who is trapped in her house due to having a severe illness. I won’t ruin the ending, but let’s just say being stuck in her house is kind of how I feel right now.

When I was sitting on the beach in Greece or travelling on a boat I never felt so free. Now that this is my reality being stuck at home part of me feels like I’m waiting for the next adventure when surely life should just be one big adventure? 

Surviving Earthquakes and Holiday Blues

So I’ve had a crazy summer so far…

After I went to Mexico. I then took a trip to Suffolk and went to latitude festival where I jumped on my best friends shoulders and sung my heart out to Mumford and Sons – I will wait whilst rather intoxicated. 

From there I went to Kos in Greece. Our first night things went bump and we experienced their first earthquake in many years. Although it was my first night we also experienced aftershocks the second night which I was wide awake for. Fortunately we were in the south Kos town experienced the majority of the disaster and I just feel so sorry for all the injured and the victims. Greece is so beautiful and for a town to be destroyed by a natural disaster is so tragic.

Anyway so after surviving the earthquake we experienced Kos clubs which were not like British clubs although they had the British music people were allowed to smoke so I ended up smelling like an ashtray some nights when we ventured to Downtown which is an underground club in Kardamena. 

We also went on a boat trip to paradise beach also known as bubble beach due to the volcano nearby some parts of the beach experience air bubbles. Fortunately I had my camera this whole summer so I captured some footage of the bubbles!

I never thought I could fall in love with a place so badly, but after 3 weeks which resulted in us using our bank cards in foreign ATM’s to withdraw more money. It’s safe to say I never wanted to leave despite having the worlds worst hangover on the final day and I mean horrific!

I would go back in a heartbeat I actually looked at flights, but they were all fully booked. Myself and my sister had two mottos in Kos;

The first one – What happens in Kos stays in Kos

The second one – Here for a good time not a long time

So now after following several people on Instagram from our holiday and questioning whether we will ever keep in touch. I am now waiting for our next adventure to Italy in 10 days where we will be travelling to Rome and Naples.

What I’ve learned most from this summer is I never want to live in my hometown forever this world is to beautiful to be stuck in one place.

Getting Away

So for the last two weeks I have been in Mexico. There is nothing I love more than leaving my normal life behind and hopping on a plane. Although it did take 11 hours!

Switching off from the world being in a completely different time zone and meeting new people was absolutely incredible. Part of me wishes I never had to come back. Although I do have exciting things ahead so the feeling of sadness quickly evaporated.

Getting away from the world doesn’t have to just be going to a different country. There are so many other ways to getaway when things seem to be too much this includes;

-Turning off my phone! Social Media is one of the easiest ways to switch off from the world

– Visiting a new town or city. I recently went to Scotland although it is an hours plane journey it’s somewhere I had never been before

– Taking a walk also always gives me the thinking time I need.

From now on I’m definitely going to make sure I take time to getaway. For now I am onto the next adventure of sleeping in a tent at a festival for 4 nights wish me luck!

Still dreaming of Mexico’s sunset…